Change Change and even more Change


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Family Picture Thanksgiving 2016

Hello world. Its been quite a bit of time since I have written anything. This year has been one of the hardest and best years of my life. So many things have changed. So lets just jump right into it. The change I am referring to began almost a year ago during Christmas break. My husband came home to tell me we were MOVING! What! We had a year and a half left and yet because of his advancement he was told it was time to move. At first I was sad and cried a lot. After I got over leaving our home in Ilwaco I became excited for our new adventure. R and I dreamed about all the locations we could possibly live. I dreamt about living in South Carolina and seeing all the historic buildings. I dreamt about living in Florida and enjoying summer year round. Not to mention all the storms. R put down 40 different places on his dream list. If I had to move I wanted an adventure and something completely different from the Pacific Northwest. This was our opportunity to show our children something new and that change can be a good thing. I wanted to teach our kids how to be perseverant.


Finally the day came. R called me at work and I knew right away he found out. Portsmouth, New Hampshire he said. I did lots of research before hand but for the life of me I could not remember anything about Portsmouth. I asked him if this was one of the places he was excited about and he said yes! I could not wait to go home and see the place we were about to call home. I kept thinking we were about to move to the opposite side of the country and explore places I would have never dreamed about. I remember thinking when R and I first got married I could easily live a life of a Coast Guard wife. I was up for adventure and moving to different places didn’t scare me. There was a reason I had those feelings because here we are living thousands of miles away from family and friends.

I have learned many things along the way through this whole process. My kids have been amazing and embraced this massive change. We have driven across the country and seen this amazing country we call home.

If you are about to move or interested in seeing more of this country than stay tuned. More to come!

Disneyland Part One 

Let me just say we had the best time in Disneyland. I have never seen my son so much in his element. Apparently the more stimulation for Kai the better. 
On a side note:

A few months before we went to Disneyland I felt I needed to do something drastic with Kai. He could easily have five meltdowns a day that could last anywhere from twenty minutes to an hour. So one night I was searching Pinterest for ideas and I found some parents eliminate all dye from their diet. I talked with R about it and he agreed. So I told Kai he was allergic to dye and he needed to be careful with what he ate. We got rid of cereal, candy, toothpaste, aloe Vera, lotion, soap. Anything with dye was in the trash. A week or so later we started noticing a big difference with Kai. Yes he still has tantrums but they would last five minutes and then be done! (I will write more about this on another post) 
Anyways back to Disneyland!! 

Thursday: We drove down to R’s parents house to spend the night. The day before we spent all day doing last minute errands and getting a dead rat out of our engine. Talk about smelly! I am so thankful to finally have the smell out of our car. For about two weeks we had to drive with the windows down because the smell was unbearable! The guys at the car place were so nice and helpful. And when they found the dead rat they even helped clean up all the extra leftovers. Anyways, back to Disney. We had originally planned to leave Friday for the airport but once we had all of our bags packed and errands accomplished we wanted to get our vacation started. After spending the night with R’s parents we took the kids on the ferry to Seattle. 

The day was beautiful and so warm. What a great way to start our vacation! We visited R’s sister for awhile and then had dinner with our grandparents. Afterwards it was time to go to the hotel. This was my first getting a hotel and doing the park and fly option. I choose the Sleep Inn because it had a bus service instead of a van. I didn’t want to take the kids car seats on top of all of our luggage we needed to carry. The less stuff the better. Everything went very smoothly once we got to the hotel. The kids were also able to go to bed pretty early. Thank goodness since we had a very early flight! I woke up around 3:20am. We got the kids up around 3:45 and headed for the shuttle. 

 Surprisingly, Kai was more excited than cranky. He thought it was so exciting getting on a bus and heading to the airport. (I prepped Kai many times about our early morning flight and that we would be getting up before the sunrises.) Adalie was tired but very cute. Once we got to the airport we checked in our bags and received our tickets. They told us we could go in the pre-check line which means we didn’t have to take off our shoes. (Before our trip I made sure To put on easy shoes to take off and on) I guess it wasn’t necessary. 
Once we got on the plane I was hoping the kids would sleep. My perfect scenario didn’t quite happen. Adalie was full of energy and Kai wanted to sit with other family members. Thankfully the flight didn’t last long and we were on our way to Disneyland! R and I decided to not go to the parks on the first day. Instead we walked around, had lunch, and enjoyed the pool. We stayed at the Disneyland hotel and it was beautiful. Kai loved the pool. Adalie enjoyed the hot tub and putting her face under the water.

 Since the kids woke up early that day we decided to head to our room early for the night. Tomorrow was going to be an early morning at California Adventure! 

Living life 

Disney is less than a month away! And my family needs a vacation. My husband R has been working very hard lately. When he is at work it’s like I am a single mom. Yes it’s only for a few days but it can be an exhausting couple of days. Sometimes it becomes hard on my son who hasn’t seen his daddy all weekend. One thing I can not seem to get used to with this lifestyle is how our days can never be on a routine. Everyday is different. Most families have a parent who works 5 days in a row, comes home at 5:30, and has the weekend off. On the days R is working I never know if he is coming home or staying the night. I can never plan a big meal on the days he is working since he may only have five minutes for a dinner. I try to make the best of it for my kids yet their are days when I am completely exhausted from everything. I will say this though, not a day goes by that I am not grateful for where we are in life and the adventure that got us here. I find myself many times looking out of our backyard thanking Jesus for bringing us this opportunity. I am still amazed we live in such a beautiful area. This lifestyle may not be easy but I wouldn’t want it any other way.   

Sick baby, tired mommy 

My baby has been sick for the past week. She has had an upset tummy, runny nose, cough, diarrhea, vomiting, and one exhausted mommy. Since she has been throwing up mainly at night I have been sleeping with her in the living room. Some nights are worse than others and at other times I think she is about to get better. It’s hard to see your baby sick. It’s especially hard when they do not understand what’s happening to their body. This will be the sixth night for us. My body is tired but my mommy brain is telling me my child needs me more than I need the extra sleep. She is restless right now because her tummy hurts. I want her to know it will feel better with a little pedilite but she keeps pushing it away. I pray she feels better soon. I miss my fun loving little girl. I am thankful that I can hold her through these moments when she feels so sick. I remember when I was a little girl I would only want Mommys arms around me when I was feeling sick. I hope when she is older she will want to do the same for her little girl. 

 Weeks  7/8/9 Reflecting on what God has taught me: 

Week #7/8/9 Reflecting on what God has taught me: 

Lately I have had bad writers block. For some reason I was unmotivated to write and yet I knew what I wanted to write. I just didn’t seem to have the words. Now I am ready. 
I feel like the word patience has been on my mind for these past couple of weeks. Love is patient. And yet sometimes I find myself being quick to anger with my kids. I want them to listen the first time yet sometimes I am the one who doesn’t listen. We all make mistakes and it’s important for my kids to see that it is okay to make mistakes. It’s what you do afterwards that matters. 
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,  gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

Galatians 5:22-23 

Also, I have been working on eating healthier and eating less. These past couple of weeks I have had some set backs however, I am determined to be healthy not only for my husband and my kids but for myself. 

My week of healthy living part one

Back when I was in college I was so well disciplined. I would work out almost everyday and only allow myself to have a cookie for dessert. I would also do crunches every night talking to R! Now that I have two kids and I am exhausted all the time, I feel my motivation has plummeted. I want to have that motivation back. I feel gross inside my body and I need a change. So I have decided to do a routine for a week. I am hoping I will feel more rejuvenated and less grumpy. And at the end of the week I will let you know how it all went. So here is my plan:

More ways to exercise:

* When R gets home for dinner I can do a quick run up and down our road to our house.
* On R’s days off run up to the lighthouse and back
* dance with the kids

Eat more healthy
*Drink more water
* No Juice
* More veggies
* No coffee

I know this doesn’t sound much but I need a change. You got to start somewhere.

And what better reward than going to Disney in May

Week #5 Reflecting on what God has taught me:

Week #5 Reflecting on what God has taught me:

I have been praying a lot more lately and I have also been praying a lot with my kids. Every morning I pray with Kai on the way to school. It has been our tradition and I love hearing him give thanks to God for the beauty in our world. Last night we both prayed for a little girl who has been stricken with cancer. I showed Kai a picture of the little girl and he was curious why she looked the way she did. I tried to explain cancer to a four year old but how do you comprehend something that massive. He seemed concern for the little girl and understood she was very sick. If you would like to pray for this little girl her name is Kylie and you can learn more about her journey here.

We may never know what obstacle we may face in life but I know I can’t do it alone.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭6‬ NIV

Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.
Colossians‬ ‭4‬:‭2‬ NIV

Even through hard times we can find things to be thankful for.


Week #4 Reflecting on what God has taught me

Week #4 Reflecting on what God has taught me
Before I became I mom, I never thought it would be like going back to middle school. There are different cliques and cliques within a clique. I feel judged 24/7. It’s hard to feel like you can make friends with other moms who may do things differently than you. So many times we are so quick to give advice to other moms that may not be appreciative. Every mother has different strengths and does things differently because she herself is different from you.

I don’t want to judge other moms for doing things differently. That is not my job. My job is to be the best mom I can possibly be to my two precious babies. Parenting is hard work! It is much harder than I thought. We as moms don’t need to stand around talking about which parenting style is better. Perhaps there is no perfect parenting style but one that fits perfectly in your family and your relationship with the Lord.

Romans 14:5-10

I also wanted to add I read a great article on about how moms should stop competing with each other and instead start telling yourself you are a good mom! You can read the article here.

Week #3 Reflecting on what God has taught me

Week #3 Reflecting on what God has taught me:

These past few weeks have flown by! I wish time would slow down a little. My children are growing up so fast. Last night Kai and Adalie both wanted to look at some old photo albums of when Kai was a baby. I sat there looking through all the photos thinking I can not believe they are grown up enough to be interested in looking at old pictures. Kai was very intrigued and asked lots of questions. Adalie also enjoyed looking at all the pictures.

I think this week God is teaching me this week that time goes by fast and the time I have with my children will soon be gone. I need to be present more in their life. I don’t want my kids to remember me as the mom who was glued to her phone. I want them to remember me as the mom who played tag with them and would do silly things with them.

When I am old and my kids are having kids of their own I want them to remember how much fun they had with their mom.

(I will not be storing up memories with my kids behind my phone.)

The fruit of the spirit is love, joy and peace.
– Galatians 5:22



Week #2 Reflecting on what God has taught me:

This week I felt God was teaching me to have more of a positive attitude. I am a type of person who gets stressed out easily especially if something doesn’t go the way I plan it. Sometimes life doesn’t go according to plan, especially when you throw two little kids in the mix.
Instead of letting the situation get the best of me, I can turn our predicament into something positive.

I know my attitude can transform my family into having a great day into having a dark and gloomy kind of day. I have noticed my son Kai can be very in-tune with my emotions and will usually become the emotion I am experiencing. I want to teach my son how to push aside the negativity and turn it into a positive thing. Yes life throws you lemons once in awhile but why not make some ice cold lemonade!

Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. ~Winston Churchill

This week’s special moment was when the kids saw daddy come home from being gone for a week. R had to do some training in North Carolina and had a great time exploring the area.
Adalie squealed in delight and Kai didn’t want to let go of his daddy.